So yeah, its interesting because it is for sure finals week but not all the realizations of the event have entered my mind. 

Ive always wanted to improve my writing and be like uber pro with blogs and do like journalistic (magazine article) type writing but I havent had the mission or purpose to divert that much energy to alot of stuff. I have though been diverting energy to learning a guitar. Learning a guitar might be a waste of time since i have no freaking clue what im doing most of the time but its pretty entertaining and sometimes really discouraging. I listen to alot of metal symphonic so i hear some freaking epic rifts and it inspires me and then when i look at a tab for a song or sit down and try and memorize a tab….. yeah i leave my guitar feeling like a loser most of the time. might help too if i could keep it in tune too. i hear there might be an issue with the bridge but i havent the time or money to take it to the local music shop and check it out. 

And then theres the random emotional sdtuff too. At times i feel really really lonely, others i feel like the luckiest dude in the world in regards to my friends. I’ve been hanging out with a dude named cory lately and hes pretty seksi when it comes down to it and its been pretty awesome. He has only been a christian for about a year and its so weird since everything ive taken for granted in christianity is like the most amazing thing in the world for him to experience. Or he’ll end up asking me questions and im like, well you know blah blah blah…. and i’ll get a blank stare and i really have to help him build foundations since you cant really reaqd the bible in 1 night and get theological depth to it. which scares me alot too because i have to make sure i dont screw him up and teach or lead him in the wrong direction or show him something thats theologicaly or spiritually wrong. 

I’ve also been finding some crazy music through pandora too. I absolutely loving the metal symphonic stuff from europe lately and its just crazy amazingness. Leaves’ Eyes, Dark Moor, Krypteria and like so many cool things. I still really want to buy Theocracy which is a christian power metal band and i want to get the documentary “FRAG” really badly >_< . Blah its lame i feel sometimes like my passions get stifled by so much stuff. I cant play crazy rifts cuz i have no background in music or practice or anything cool like that, I love gaming but i dont have hardly any time left to play games, I like video editing but it seems it will have taken me 5 years total school to take a class on it O_o , I want to build a business but who knows where that will ever end up, i like longboarding but i need new bearings and i cracked my prototype board so i have to make a new one or go to my old one, which is fine but i really loved having a 60″x10″ monster that cruised.  

blah sometimes i feel so hindered but I know God will have so much fun stuff for me to do and experience and yeah…. cuz God is amazing. I think the lonely stuff is prolly what irratates me the most sometimes because I know im blessed beyond belief and have no room for complaining.

 

and now i have to think about dinner and catching a bus later and walking up a hill in 8F snow weather…. >_< oh well…. Glory to God in the highest, its almost His birthday. pie ftw!