Atown’s Place to Think

Well here is a video of my graduation/going away party

http://l337-coffee.com/vidarchive/adam.wmv

35min is a good place to start actually and the quality is lame because i didt want u to have to download 1-2gb of video lol

Well lately ive felt the need to do multiple of certain things. 1. get a pirates log book for writing stuff for this but also writing notes in church, 2. getting some pirate flags to decorate my room. the following is my thoughts in my mind.

Ok so we go through life, and we rely on God… honestly this may sound like a previous blog but im trying not to. We rely on God, because he said his yoke is light which in my mind translates as easier to bare upon us. Now we go through life and yes we have temptations, we also have life difficulties. How do we as humans differentiate between satan, our flesh (including good emotions and desires), and Gods voice. I know that people say stuff like, ZOMG HES IN THE WHISPER GO THERE! but when your in the middle of a crowded room, city, etc. thats a little hard to do. We’re suppose to be led by the Holy spirit, and walk in the ways of righteousness, but how do we … i dont want to say invoke that, but how do we really get to the core of following God when we’re so blind to whats infront of us. Bible says in mark 8:34 – “Then, calling the crowd to join his disciples, he said, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow me. “”  ok what does that look like in the clutch?? I know i have a clean heart because God took away my other one, if theres anything he doesnt have i dunno why not because i sit there and pray and tell him take it all, take it all. what else is there, when the end result is pauls words in romans 1:21-25  21So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; 23but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. 24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? 25Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!
So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God’s law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.”"

well ive been trying to get all the paper work in order and i just wish my friend from burien would call me back to i can get more work done on this project. blah!

ever had that feeling of wth God?? i know we’re not suppose to say “why” or whatnot when we pray, but every now n then theres just that “WTH God, i dont understand.” life hurts and you wonder where and when its gonna stop hurting and you want God to do something but its like Michelle in the film “BLACK” said, “my prayers take long to reach God, and it takes even longer for him to grant them as well, and even then that snowy day he did not grant them.” slightly paraphrased because i dont have the movie to watch right this second but the point remains. then u have the contradiction of yourself cuz ur like…. hmmm i dont want to be like isreal in the desert for 40 years… then u realize you have been faithful and then ur like…. wth i dont understand christianity.

Christianity is not a religion its a personal relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ, and we’re suppose to be able to go threw life relying on Him because we are incapable of doing anything on our own, besides free will, besides that life is suppose to be like one of the hyms,

I serve a risen Savior,
He’s in the world today;
I know that he is living,
Whatever men may say;
I see His hand of mercy,
I hear His voice of cheer,
And just the time I need Him
He’s always near.

He lives, he lives,
Christ Jesus lives today!
He walks with me and talks with me
Along life’s narrow way.
He lives, he lives,
Salvation to impart!
You ask me how I know he lives?
He lives within my heart.

and then theres the story about how a man dies and goes to heaven and is walking on a beach that shows his life and how sometimes there were 2 sets of footprints sometimes and others only 1 and the man asks, WTH? and Jesus replies, “Thats when i carried you.”

relative? not sure, but im just tired of feeling like hell in my heart, constant waring, not knowing what im suppose to do, and making myself look like a complete imbecile because i dont know how to act like myself because i dont even know what that is.

People say, “oh just get into a quiet place with God” …. ok….. then what??? what happens when youve tried every freaking thing possible, “well, its when your able to let go and allow God to work in your life, your not suppose to try” …. ok i tried that too…… soo…. now what?

well, i think i found an advisor for my skillsusa club im trying to start at WSU, and so i thought i would share my current chapter display idea

Well, sorry for the delay but due to life (hence the new name of the place) stuff has changed and im now a student at WSU (if ur passing through pullman washington send me an e-mail) and whatnot. The new title is pretyt much inspired by Montegomery Gentry’s song “Speed”

I’m tired of spinning my wheels
I need to find a place where my heart can go to heal
I need to get there pretty quick
Hey mister what you got out on that lot you can sell me in a pinch

Maybe one of them souped up muscle cars
The kind that makes you think you’re stronger than you are
Color don’t matter no I don’t need leather seats
All that really concerns me is

Speed
How fast will it go
Can it get me
Over her quickly
Zero to sixty
Can it outrun her memory
Yeah, what I really need
Is an open road
And a whole lot of speed

I’d like to trade in this old truck
Cause it makes me think of her and that just slows me up
See, it’s the first place we made love where we used to sit and talk
On the tailgate all night long but now she’s gone
And I need to move on
So give me

Speed
How fast will it go
Can it get me
Over her quickly
Zero to sixty
Can it outrun her memory
Yeah, what I really need
Is an open road
And a whole lot of speed

Throw me them keys so I can put some miles between us
Tear off that rearview mirror there’s nothing left to see here
Let me lean on that gas
Oh she catches up fast
So give me

Speed
How fast will it go
Can it get me
Over her quickly
Zero to sixty
Can it outrun her memory
Yeah, what I really need
Is an open road
And a whole lot of speed

That’s what I need
I’m tired of spinning my wheels
I’m tired of spinning my wheels

so yeah, this is more of my way of finding a place to think and type and share my thoughts. hope you like the new look

Its summer, skillsusa PWNED IN THE FACE FOR NATIONAL CONFERENCE, even though we didt win much, im very proud of my chapter and all that was accomplished and it was really really kool.  im now taking 20 credits at the quarter college and then i’ll be off to wazzu’z so yeah.

theres a new blog on my blogroll for CCGR’s new baby coming soon. this will be her 3rd which is koolz

yeah we finished finals and we did pretty good for what its worth. Starr did commencement but i still have to do summer quarter and i’ll get my degree but no commencement for me. Keep praying because we’re not perfect and life happens. pray she can get her registration in order for WSU in the fall tooz

just a quick note. we’ve been really busy and finals are coming up so plz pray we can do well this upcoming week. also stuff with starr has been amazingly good and God continues to bless us immensly. i think though we have been having a bout with materialism and wanting things cuz we both want mac products and so many other things we want but cant afford. continue praying for us cuz it really is working.

on a side note stuff has been going amazingly good with brother. hes starting to come back to the lord and hes actually about to open a shop called “Bagels and Brew” in washington state univerity home town. Brew refers to coffee and beer, and that would be catering to families and the college students because pullman is known as a “party school” even though its not that bad anymore, the kids still like to drink alot so it works. but hes getting back on the path, slowly but surely.