Well, it seems a new semester has started and by the looks of it, its gonna take me another year to graduate from college cuz of credit issues. oh well, its not like i mind being in college though.

Alot of stuff has change yet i was told a few weeks ago I hadnt changed at all, laf. In alot of ways i havent though. I still dress the same, eat the same food, practice christianity as best as i can with Gods help, and do computer stuff and play video games and concentrate on school. On the other hand, my perspectives and my reactions, convictions, and my life struggles also have changed.

Perspectives: My perspective changes alot because of knowledge. and if anything, it gets reinforced or changed in such a way that the paradigm shift allows for the growth in particular areas, not only academically but socially and spiritually as well.  Academically just because i take classes and learn so much stuff, its awesome. Socially because God blesses me in so many ways with my bible studies, friends, and sometimes lack thereof in regards to friends. I say lack thereof, not because im lacking in friends, but i lack in my aquantices category. I call that a blessing because my friends are truly my friends, just not people i say hi to every now n then. Spiritually my perspective changes, not alot in the way of my core concepts and ideals (if anything the idea of capitalism has been reinforced greatly as of late) but in how i percieve God has been fresh and invigorating in so many ways as i read and meditate on his word.

I feel pretty tired now so i wont continue on much further. if anything i’ll address the life struggles portion because thats prolly the most present thing to my mind.

Its funny because everyone is always wanting to know what God has for them and just cant wait for it all to happen and know and experience life. Some people have even heard (through word of knowledge or talking and listing to God) whats gonna happen and what they have to look forward to in life. Yet, me on the other hand, I really dont want to know. I want to life and be content with what God has for me right now and not miss anything. I dont want to miss things because I was looking too far forward and didt see the blessings that are still right in front of me. I dont want to worry and plan, etc. Been praying recently alot and i feel that overall, i am suppose to focus on faith this year though. Faith in regards to prayer and expectation. My expectation is that God will rock my world if i let Him, and i really do want that. And that really means trusting and having faith (like im suppose to focus on) that the WORD is true and that Gods promises that are made in the Bible are true and that I have nothing to worry about. Paul was ship wrecked, murdered, bitten by deadly snakes, and God had a plan for him and kept him safe through it all. In all of this, I have to not lean on my own understand just like Proverbs says, and He will make my way straight. Struggles? ya ive got school, i have my family, i have my loneliness, but I have a God that freaking pwns and will strengthen and guide me through it all.

Jesus ftw