Atown’s Place to Think

Something I’ve been pondereing and will update soon enough the whole story

Well I’ve been thinking and the mini dell 9 was great while I was in school… But now that im working and other stuff…. I need something with a bit more kick. But also I wonder if I should be worring about this as I save money for a car fix up….

Needing firewire with decent capture ability, decent webdesign adaption, and whatnot…

What do you consider twitter spam and what do you consider a service? There are a lot of automated twitter accounts but I am going to perform an experiment.

Using the account @MarketingArmada I am going to provide a marketing service provider and test several “tools” from twitter. Without having a website, I really wonder how much people consider things as a service and actually benefit from it.

Thoughts?

Leadership is an itneresting thing. different styles and different groups and ways of doing things. theres not really a good way or wrong way, but theres ways that work and ways that dont. Its your heart for the group that is important but then your methods you choose to use will either work or not.

How then do you stand before your group in good times and bad when your leadership works and when it doesnt? The thing is, if their loyal they will follow in the bad methods and who knows what will happen because of those actions. A servant leader does his best and as his followers submit to his will, so must he submit to humility and prayer and be before the group in a poor spirit

So I came to a weird realization. And let me help you follow my train of though. I’m not sure where I’m going in life, but I know I want to change the world. But I relized I don’t have desires of a different kind.

As I’ve thought about dating and whatnot, something of note I’ve come to relize is that its best to be equally yoked. Even past just being christians, our goals and dreams must be equal. Our hearts must have a similar mission and call.

Currently I’m writing this from a fundraiser dinner, where the girl has known for years that she wants to go to africa, uganda specifically, and has had this longing and desire for ages.

Another gal I know wants to and desires just to go and live in honduras after her degree to work and minister…

As I’ve thought about it, I have no… Great desire to go to other places. Well I don’t have much vision for when and where I’m suppose to minister to.

I know for now I’m suppose to work on these guys but sometimes I really feel that I’m not doing a great enough of a job. I have been wanting to go back to the west side of the state but haven’t felt led to go back yet. So I feel I’m trying to prepare as best I can but don’t know what else I’m suppose to do.

So I’m looking for vision. Wish there was some concept and brand/branding classes I could take.

What is life that we should believe that we are setup and suppose to do things of our own accord? Anything we ever do in this life is because we had the backing of other people. Whether we have friends, family, spouse, or God, we must have support. We must be driven by community, but above all else, the leading of God by Walking in the light, as He is in the light.

Why do we think so independently when businesses look for partnerships, collaborate, and network? Why do we think we are so capable and our own strength when the bible clearly states we are all apart of a body. These desires for self work is only in the context for selfish desires and the inherent wanted fulfillment of said desires. Yet in business terms, though we’re trying to fulfill selfish desires, we are still using other people.

So as we submit ourselves to God, each of us submitted together can create a meaningful community and church body as outlined in the book of acts and we could change the world. Why change the world?

If we really believed every person who is not saved is going to die… Our evangelism in america and the world would be so different. So why change the world? Because if we don’t, we fail our friends, and family members who do not know Christ. Are we really loving our neighbors if we don’t tell them about God? Then changing the world should be the result of the overflowing love in our relationship with God.

Why change the world? Because we have to, need to, and should choose to.

So i recently graduated and now working full time at WSU and its been pretty good. I do have some odd down times here n there but oh well. Work is work. Its interesting though, I’m surrounded by a lot of asain and muslim people now and I really wonder some days how I really can live and show them the Lord through my behavior and relationship with Christ.

Leading a bible study has been an awesome adventure too. Leading and mentoring random guys has been really awesome.

I just hope I walk in the grace, faith and spirit of God enough to change the world.

Now there are many ways we can be discouraged in our lives, for me it usually tends to be me self analyzing too much and i really come down harshly on myself. The other form is when we know someone was counting on us and we let them down. Another one dealing with people is where we unknowingly did something and the person becomes upset at us. I’ve recently come across another type of discouragement. It is where you (person A) wish to help person B, and you offer advice or services and then person C comes along with much better advice or abilities or services and person B is grateful for the help from person C. Now the focus of this was to help person B, and that was a shared goal by both A and C. C did not mean for A to feel inferior, yet in some weird way, it may discourage person A even though the initial goal was achieved.

Now why would this even matter? Well to dive further in, was the discouragement stemming from the lack of ability to sufficiently help person B or is it a prideful hurt that was unintentionally done by person C? For more information concerning the situation we must ask what is the relationship between A and B. Are A and B just friends or acquaintances or is A attempting to find themselves in a position where B would be reliant on A e.g. dating relationship/marriage. Then we have to ask what is C’s relationship with B and A.

Before i make this into a soap opera, in which nothing is accomplished, the core issue comes back to discouragement. Is it a legitimate experience? possibly. But where should our hope and and self worth come from? From our Lord Jesus Christ.

Yeah, im feeling like i need to ramble just a bit today.

Its funny because as humans we are always looking forward to the next big thing. Even in the book by Ted Dekker, The Slumber of Christianity, this is the case. We are always feeling like we need to wake up and find ourselves in heaven and then we get our big pay off. All the this is going on we’re subconsciously and sometimes very consciously waiting for our time on earth to end so that we can go about being happy in heaven. Content is the issue.
Why do i bring this topic up? Well ive found myself lacking contentment lately and its been bugging me alot. I’ve found that i have an awesome ministry, I just got a mac at work so i can fulfill my work appropriately, i have an awesome car, awesome friends, longboarding is pretty bawesome, etc. and yes i just used the word “Bawesome.” So why am i discontented? I have no idea, it might be my food didt really sit well with me and i dont feel up-beat or it really could be that I need to start counting my blessings more, or just need to have more worship music playing to help lift my spirits in the meandering parts of the day.

as far as society is concerned, I am horribly unhappy because i dont party, drink, have a girl friend or lead a promiscuous life. As far as society is concerned, society itself can go shoot itself for believing that those things will really make you happy. The thing we have to come back to, is Joy vs. Happiness. Happiness happens, joy is everlasting. So it has become my week goal to walk out in Joy in my heart and life for I know the things my savior has done for me and it should reflect in my life, regardless of what im feeling in the here and now.

As far as unmet legitimate desires, well God is my rock and my refuge and I will abide in Him and his shadow for my fufillment and wait patiently upon the Lord.

Well im torn. I really want a quad monitor setup. and i could do it but i would have to change my setup to a water cooled and spend $200 on a single card with 4 dvi outputs (already have the water cooled system but its in another pc).

Or i could spend about $400 and get a quad core, 2 cards with 2 dvi each = quad monitor, 8gb setup, and basically double my entire pc specs…. cant really afford it right now though and if i did update later on i could use the $200 still….. so hard >_<